Today marks exactly two months
since my world turned upside down. Since you broke up with me. Even though it’s only been two months, it felt like forever ago.
I think it’s crazy coincidental our schedules worked out and we met up today, the exact two months after the break up, for the first time since that day. I didn’t think that our meet up would turn into a 1 1/2 hour catch up session. We’re both coping and doing what we said we were going to do, work at making ourselves better.
I seriously missed you. It just sucks to not talk to my best friend as much as I used to. When we talked today, it just felt so natural, like how it’s supposed to be. No walls, just so open. Genuine, “How are you?”s.
You asked me today, what I did after that night two months ago. I’ve been trying so hard to keep in the back of my mind, and when you brought it up, I couldn’t even talk about it. I was already holding back tears. It still hurts to think about.
You said today you’re still not over it and I realized today I’ve been lying to myself and I’m not over it either, over you. I mean, how could I? We spent more than four years together. You were my first love. First everything, for the most part. I already know that I’ll never stop loving you because I seriously care about you so much. But, right now, I know we can’t be together. We are at different places in our lives and we’re both trying to figure out who we are and what we want. The timing is just not right.
Who knows, maybe in the future, we could happen again. Maybe in a year, maybe when you graduate college, maybe even when I graduate college. Or maybe we won’t, and you’ll find someone or I’ll find someone and that’s who we’ll end up with and that’s okay. Who knows. Only God knows. And I know He knows what’s best for us. That’s why we are where we are right now.
But for right now
I’m moving on.
LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. LMAO.
I laughed so much.
I lost it at “damn this colon smells real good”ahahahahaha
HAHAHAHAHA!
(Source: iraffiruse)
Someone take me to the ferris wheel in Seattle to watch the sunset.
That would be AMAZING.
I can’t wait for this to open.
I’ve been craving french toast. My favorite breakfast food.
If someone made me french toast, I’d probably love them forever.
NOMNOMNOM.
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mlovefool asked: yea i did. it's one of the secret spots i like to go to in the neighborhood. so when are we going on our crappy date so you don't fall in love but i can still show you around anyways haha?
YOU MUST SHOW ME!!! And sooooon! Hopefully when the weather gets consistent… What’s your schedule like?
